College Days; home for the summer 1989 (sophomore)
I had just pledged Kappa at 20 yrs old. Came home for the summer, went out to a club that night and met a woman who was married to an NBA player. She didn’t tell me the night I met her. The next day she calls and “asks if she could see me”. I was home for the summer, staying with my sister on the northside of Chicago. My sister had just left for work, she came over. I would never forget she asked me “what was I doing for the summer” and “I replied, I’m looking for a job”. She says, “you don’t have to work this summer I will take care of you and to prove it,” she gave me all the money she had in her purse, $500.00.Stay tuned, more to come.....
She asked, “ if she could see me the next day” I said, “yes”. The next day she gave me a couple thousand dollars. With that money I bought suits starting at a price of 1,000 or more, rented cars for a week at a time, and went to all the parties. Stay tuned, more to come.....
Her husband had a basketball shoe contract and I would get gym shoes from her and pass them out to the guys in my neighborhood,Cabrini Green. They praised me like I was a king. I didn’t like this woman, because I had several other girlfriends, but I liked her money. As I continued to get more money, she got slick on me, made me wait for her to come over to give me something, so I could buy another suit for a party. She start controlling me through her money, knowing that I didn’t have a job, I felt powerless because I had become co-dependent on her. I was a male prostitute. I got angry and didn’t care about money anymore. I was on my way back to college so I no longer cared, I let her go.
The same thing happened to me, I was prostituted by the dope game...I was rollin hard and could touch millions until I ended up using drugs and going to prison! It's amazing how hurt people hurt people;just like she was hurting, so she hurt you!
ReplyDeleteThe Holy Spirit is the Source of Joy. His Presence brings joy. His fruit is joy. His Wisdom increases our joy. He is the Spirit of Wisdom. The pursuit of money, or having it does not produce joy. We cannot depend on our loved ones to create an atmosphere of happiness.
There are five misconceptions about joy. Many think joy comes from people, promotion, progress, power or possessions. The wise person discovers the truth. The Holy Spirit creates joy within us every moment that He is pleasured. When we pleasure Him through total obedience, we will feel what He is feeling. When we grieve Him and bring Him sorrow, we will feel what He is feeling.
For the Kingdom of God is not meat and drink; but righteousness and peace, and joy in the Holy Ghost. Romans 14:17
The Holy Spirit will give us joy in the midst of our most difficult and fiery trials. His joy enables us to keep doing our Assignment in the midst of threats. When the Holy Spirit controls our life, our words will become catalysts for blessing.
HE is our only true Source of peace…the absence of inner conflict. His Presence brings peace. When we obey His instructions a calmness will enter our spirit. The greatest warfare of our life is the Holy Spirit versus our flesh and self. When we permit the leadership of the Holy Spirit in our life, we will enter the most remarkable and unforgettable season of calm and inner peace we could imagine.
Man cannot give this peace. Popularity does not create this kind of peace. Wealth cannot produce this peace. Psychiatrists cannot produce this kind of peace. A loving mate does not produce this kind of peace.
Uncommon peace is a gift from an uncommon God. ‘And the peace of God, which passes all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:7
The Holy Spirit helps us to develop the mind of Christ. Romans 8:6.
He causes the weary to rest, and this is refreshing. Isaiah 28:12; 26:3.
The Holy Spirit will give us discernment regarding our friendships. Fault-finding words create a climate of conflict, anger and cynicism…from such we are to turn away. 'Again I say, don’t get involved in foolish, ignorant arguments that only start fights. A servant of the Lord must not quarrel but must be kind to everyone, be able to teach, and be patient with difficult people. Gently instruct those who oppose the truth. Perhaps God will change those people’s hearts, and they will learn the truth. Then they will come to their senses and escape the devil’s trap . For they have been held captive by him to do whatever he wants.' 2 Timothy 2:23-25. When the Holy Spirit is in leadership, we will discern these people quickly.
You are a door or a wall. You can become a wall against cynicism, discouragement and pessimism. Or you can be a door of entry for others to walk into joy. Sometimes it is necessary to become a wall against things that are unholy, unrighteous, and that bring unhappiness, yet, Oh, how I want to become the Door for the presence of God to enter
The Holy Spirit will give you the courage and strength to withdraw from the company of foolish people. This increases your peace. Pessimism and despondency can come through the words of one person. In proverbs 14:7 we are told to stay away from fools.
WOW johnny. Thank you for sharing K.O. you are very brave & obviously in Gods will.
ReplyDeleteWow, this sounds like a situation I have been in. I thought I was in control by allowing her to help me out, but really she had power over me. I was the one who was weak in the "relationship". I was being given something that I never had.....
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